My nascent thoughts

It's my birthday today. I never look forward to birthdays usually, I mean I don't get thrilled "yeyy my b'day is coming"! But, everybody made me feel really special today. Swati your puri, alu sabzi and kheer was the most wonderful gift. I was delighted. I am sorry I slept off in the movie, I was reallyy tired. :P Thank you AJ , Rasu and everyone for everything. I am happy. Really. Lying in bed. Extremely tired. Yawning. That is me at the moment. Of course listening to my favorite song - Tu Jahan(Salam Namaste). I have special attachment to this song. I don't know why. I have been listening to this song ever since I was in school, and totally in love with it. Dil sochta tha koi apna ho koi raaz na ho, jo usse rakhna ho aankhein na kholun main, shayad sapna ho... End of the post on this note. Good night people. Love your life! I do. :)

Guess what happened yesterday! I told my dad, I want to drive to office without breaking my legs. He asked "you want to buy a car?" I said "yes" . He said "go ahead"! :O I could not believe me ears. I got the permission to buy a car! OMG! I was soaring in my house thrilled shouting "make a wish, granted!" , "make a wish, granted!"  :P Now, after my exuberant moment, when I got to normal, I realized I have to join driving classes. :P I am now worried, will I be able to ? Can I do it? Should I? Is this a sane decision considering it's been just 3 months I have been to office. Somebody help me decide!! Scooty. there is a huge possibility of me landing to hospital with broken legs or anything. Recent one my friend's sister had to face this. So, that scares me. Now should I buy the car or not? I went to see doctor yesterday. He said "You don't drink water and you're anaemic"! He has asked me to see him again on...

It was an awesome weekend! I really look up to you. I adore the way the way you make everything look so simple. I adore the way you look at life. I love the way you pamper me. I feel blessed to be the part of your life. I am not fighting with you again. :D At least I'll try my level best. No more to say.Actually , a lott to say! Doctor said I have less hemoglobin and slightly lesser BP. Don't worry. I'll take care of myself. You're awesome!  

Okay! I want to say that I have nothing to say again.  I hate getting up early in the morning. I skipped many of my first hour class in college which started at 9 to get, little more sleep! Nowadays, I wake up at 6:30! Thanks to office! :D When my dad discovered my office timing is 7:30 to 4:30. He was like: 7:30?? 7:30?? Amazing! See, this is what I wanted. Now, you'll know! He was enthralled by the fact that I have to go to office at 7:30! I hate getting up early. :( Everyone(My friends) has their problems. Some are worried about getting job, some about work pressure, some about career, some wants to get married(seriously?Btw, some are already married too!), some about their increasing weights and some about higher studies! I fall in the last one. Actually, I am not sure if I really do. I don't know if I want to go for higher studies or simply I want go out of India. I want to experience, explore new places. Never mind, my wish keeps changing. When I was in school, m...

Date: 01/10/13 I am in office. I don’t have work right now. I am getting really bored. I am having slight trouble to breathe(No, not because I do not have work. I am not a geek . Ok, I am a little! :/). I always wanted to resume blogging like the way I used to, when I was in school(I can picturize myself with a water bottle around my neck), I am not able to. I always have this disposition of getting too much into anything. Like, when I was in school, I was crazy about cricket. Later, I was so much into blogging and chatting thing that at one point of time I had more virtual friends than real ones! If I accidently woke up at 4 a.m, I wouldn’t go back to sleep.Instead I would hang on to the 512 or 256 mb RAM(can’t recall) compooter with windows xp and write a post and then go back to sleep again!(Did I just specify the technical detail of my the then compooter?) .Then, I fell in love. I left everything from cricket to blogging to internet!I was in 11 th . Now I don’t want to get s...

Okay, guess what it's 4 am! I haven't gone to sleep. After ages i am up till this hour. Didn't had a very good start of the day, but it ended well actually perfectly well. I mentioned in my previous post about the cloud computing workshop and I bunked it! Lazy me! Good news is that it's Sunday today and I have a choice to get up late! Monday too, is a holiday. I am planning to fast for Shivaratri. Fasting, for the first time in my life! Swati(my ROOM MATE, actually she pretty attached to the word "room mate") is sleeping! Yeah, she's human and if my mommy is reading this post I am sure she'll definitely bombard me with her questions! I have to wrap up this post. It's very late. goodnight neha! off to sleep. :)

Its been long long long time since i have updated my blog. I often visit my blog and some other blogs which i used to visit way back in 2005-2006! Whoa! 2005? Seriously its 2012 now, right? When i scroll through my posts which i used to post in my school days, and when i read the comments, it brings smile on my face. I miss that life, my school life, my school friends particularly Smriti, Silky, Priya, Surabhi and all. Two days back, I made an attempt to contact Priya, but her numbers are not available. :( We all had promised we'll stay in touch, but things change. I miss them a lot at time. Okay, I am just another "engineer to be", 3 more semesters and college life will be over! Well presently, I want it to get over, but I am sure when it actually happens I am definitely going to miss my college life. I have made new friends here. Swati, Ruchi, Roshni, Shiwani and all. Swati, well on her, I can write a book. She a girl of that disposition which every person on earth wish...

Till I was in 10th, I don’t remember a single day I traveled alone. Okay I am not talking of traveling from India to Afghanistan but like from machua toli to macharhatta . The two Ms are places in Patna. …and my knowledge about different places here was same as that of a three year old’s or you can say worse than that. I mean even if I were kidnapped I could be safely kept in the fifth building to mine’s, I’d be wondering where on earth am I. Basically, I spent half of my day at school and rest at home. Life is different now. I mean I go out alone, that too on my own. It might sound silly but it’s quite an achievement for me. From coaching to everywhere I do the traveling without any known company. It’s interesting. There is a rush for autos when 100s of students come out of coaching centers. Mostly jumping, skipping, dancing or somehow boys manage to attack autos. The one who are left are the girls or at least I am the last one left anyway unless the autowala with a heart as big as ...

Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you let it fly, it would come to you when you least expect it. No no...I am not in love. Relax. I was just looking for something to begin this post. Liked this quote, found it good, so pasted it here.Anyway. Its been a long time since I stepped into this blog world. Thanks to nitin. Well actually I owe him a lot! Blogging has been quite an experience for me. And another year is at its verge. 2006 was of okay types. I mean this year was completely different. Everything has changed. I mean my routine was nearly same for past 10 years, and its pretty different now. This was the year of many' firsts' and 'frusts'. First time appeared for board examination. First time discovered what's co-ed is like. First time I was away at some other school, where there were none of my dear pals namely Silky, Smriti, Surabhi , Priya, Jayanti, Sneha. But I have Lekhi here. First time somebody proposed me. [I...

Examination time! Ended up with my chemistry paper[ which I obviously screwed up], and landed here in cc, after a long long time. This time I was asked if I want my net connection back, but I refused. I am still wondering what made me say so... . I have got to get back home, but after I finish writing this. Its pretty difficult, I mean I never feel comfortable in cafes, anyway, I have lot of things in mind..so much is happening around, my life has incredibly changed and so have I. I am in a bit of hurry. This cafe is pretty dark. DAV is ridiculous yet 'cool'. There is so much bf and gf kinda things here,its fun. What Sarjana did was...was really interesting. There's a guy T, god damn good looking and has mind blowing personality[according to her].Everytime she sees him around she'd start jumping like anything in excitement. T discovered, obviously he had to, and yesterday approached her. Actually I am skipping few things which happened before yesterday. T approached her...

Another post-midnight post! [12:45 a.m.] :D Right now my sis is standing right in front of the mirror and can see she is pretty scaringly[not sure if this word exists] scolding her image since past 20 minutes. Actually she is busy with her debate practice. I think only mad people practise debate at 1am. Anyway, thats boring, I am trying to disturb her by enrique's "love to see you cry!". and and and and and..what else to write...? ummmm.. Yes. Actually I am very stubborn and obstinate type girl.[..and I am boasting? silly me.] This attitude of mine always makes me fall into trouble. I fought with mommy today. :((( I don't know how can I be an obediant and good mamma's daughter. I'll have to work hard on this. By the way, classes are suspended tomorrow, and I don't know why. I think they'll remain suspended this complete week. How are practical exams and viva taken? My god I never knew it would be so interesting. In my previous school I used to be so ap...

“You know, apka face Kisi se milta hai?” Fifth time. Fifth time somebody told me this in past one month. Can it be a mere co-incidence? I never knew my face is as common as my name itself… By the way, its past mid-night and after a long time since my net connection has collapsed, I am up at this hour and sitting here typing something. Exams are over. Damn classes once again begin from tomorrow. ...And including them even I have failed to figure out who this ‘kisi’ is, who has this misfortune of having similar face to that of mine. My friends say we sisters have similar looks, so I think we have. Yet it’s obvious those who pointed out aren’t talking about my sister. Okay. It looks like I am making this an issue as alarming as if it’s a case of identification of any terrorist. Fine. Coming over it. And I have not been able to get over my absent mindedness. My dad asked me to fetch his calculator from the other room. Next, I found myself in the dining room and with the refrigerator’s ga...

I guess I need a break! So a post at intervals is just enough for the time being! Let’s not get into the details of why am I not Blogging etc and simply come to my new school. So as said I am a lil’ grown, mark, I said ‘little’ because I have always been a poor kid among my group of GROWN UP friends! [I’ll include Silky in my set too.] Anyway the fact is DAV has good things about it. First- its co-ed! And second it has a gym! From co-ed all I mean is ‘for a change’ and from gym I don’t mean I have indulged in some body building activity or something! So relax! Btw, is anybody really reading this post? I thought of resuming Blogging chupke se...Nevermind. Let’s not get astray! I was talking of Gym. So I have opted for physical education as the optional subject and the funny thing is that I am now NCC cadet Miss Neha Sinha! AH! Sounds good, no? Advantage of taking physical education is easily scoring marks without much effort and if you’re getting advantage of playing volleyball etc, it’...

Recently I had been orkutting too much and it looks like I am irregular in blogging. Well, I wrote a number of posts but they are still saved as draft.Too personal to be displayed here. In past few days I was in some resigned mood. There are a number of things in life which I want to UNDO, number of things I want to erase from memory. However its not that simple as pressing the delete button or clicking the undo icon! The harder I try to get rid of them the deeper it gets engraved!The human and computer memory! Anyway, on brighter side , in fact on brightest side, I am in love with my city! I guess its absoultely right time when one can visit us. I mean one don't need summer camps[ okay. I know summer season is over] but to hell with the swimming pools of new patna club and hotel maurya etc.!The roads are perfect place for this. I mean you go out and just have a look, every street looks like another swimming pool! News says a number of people fell in manholes! Vehicles can hardly p...

Good morning post. I don't have any matter to write on but still I'll be writing this one. Lets not complicate things. Life in past few days was dull, dumb and to some extent judgemental. I have been like moron looking at stars, wondering wheredoes sky end, thinking of things and concluded HOW COMPLICATEDTHINGS ARE! I realise today nothing is as such. Khush raho, aish karo. Ummm..whatever. So this morning is a fine one. I was up at 5. My papa pulled me up straight in the morning when I was like-"nahi uthungi, !" disgust. He threatened me that he'll pass on all my chcopie to my sister so I had to wake up to better guard them. And soon after laeving the bed, brushing my teeth to get back my close up muskan I went straight away to orkut to wake up people. Ummm... arz00n , navdeep , abishake , sunmay , abhi .. whom am i missing!My mom saw me and she was up with another threat-"phir se chipak gayi compooter se!!!" and she had to say leave the place otherwise...

I slept this afternoon thinking when last I really spoke to my papa about my neighbour's dog rocky and if I have added adipose tissue or how was the last movie nagin which I was watching? Well, my papa is again out of city! Its okay. Work is worship! I fell asleep this afternoon thinking and entered the dreamland. I dreamt I was on a trip to some place out of this patna with my papa and scene is so acutely beautiful. I wonder why did I see two snakes there.My father was pointing it out and me watching two snakes very closely. It was a nice trip..only when my younger sis shook me -"uthti ho ya nahi!?! where did you keep my black pen?" Her God damn assignment!! anyway, everybody around is too serious regarding their career. It reminds me of my stabilty regarding taking decisions. First time ever when I was asked a question like-"beta, aap bade hokar kya banoge?" My answer would be "cobbler"with a big smug. I had newly learnt the word and I found it extre...

So after effects of result continues. Good as well as bad ones. A friend presently out of city called me up today and was expressing her dissapointment because she wanted one more marks, that would take her figure to the highest of our school this year. She has 95%. Whoa..all this certainly enraged me. I just can't flatter anyone.While she expressed her dissapointment I was like-" oh, I guess I should have jumped from my terrace by now! " ..and she was all silent for a moment. I can be very rude at times. I guess I'll have to get a book on 101 tips to control your anger and follow it strictly. Whats wrong with me? But these girls make me feel as if I am one lilliput in the land of gulivers! aah..fget it. ..and yesterday, I was made to realise how bad I am. A very close friend had some serious complaints(blame)[ not regarding marks and its personal ] against me. We argued...and later I had tears in my eyes, something which wasn't since past one year. I don't ...

My boards result was out yesterday!I wrote a post yesterday,which vanished! 89.2%! Like always my mom and dad had no complaints, they insisted to be more focussed and come out with better results because I knew they had anticipated somewhere around 92-93% whcih I couldn't do! I reacted to my result negatively, the moment I saw my marks on screen, but I knew I deserved this because I had wasted a hell lot of time and had to make up in february by waking up all nights! ..and today morning I woke and the first thing I did was to attend to a call waiting, that was of my sir. I knew what would be the next: Sir: kya hua neha? kitne marks aaye? Me: umm..89.2%. Sir: awww...yeh kaise ho gaya? Yeh kaise ho gaya! Now thats an interesting question. The tone with which the question was put up made sense to me as if marks were reserved for me but still I didn't get. ...and I know my teachers expected much more from me and I couldn't live up to their expectations. All blames to me! But ...

Disgusting. Four days! FOUR DAYS . Even I cannot believe this I was away from net-working for four days. Damn. Damn to this fly over!What the hell!Its absolutely exasperating!huh! *take a deep breath* Anyway. It so happened... This stupid idoit rasc*l fly over which is being contructed here ate up all the landline connection of my locality. None can access any landline calls. Thank god we have cell phones[I snatched away my dad's, okay i call him papa]! Otherwise life would have been worse than hell for un-employed people like me! Why am I feeling as if it has been ages since i was here last! Whoa..I am badly addicted. I rung up Priya this afternoon, I have had enough of patience, and unfortunaly the balance was incredibly un-balanced. She had to call me back. She checked up all mails for me..yeah yeah..she knows my P word. Man, I'll have to change all the passwords now. Thank god I don't have any private males..err..mails. ;)..but a big apology to the girl...for for..wel...

10:45 pm. I am all alone in my room. My sis is watching some movie. She is a happy fellow like any other worker because tommorrow is sunday.I haven't taken the dinner yet. Reason is so simple. I don't listen to mommmy and papa is out of station. It was on the whole a very tiring day. I went out with mom for some shopping business. I have been pissing off my parents with my same usual demand. I want to learn guitar. mummy says no because she knows[she says so] that I'll take interest in it only for a day or two. She has some other reason to convince papa that soon I'll be joining coaching classes and school and whatever and then I won't be able to continue with guitar classes. Papa who at first had no objection to this now finds it better to be quiet on this. neither yes nor no. I love playing musical instruments. I wanted to learn this violin but thought learning guitar was simpler. I tried to convince them by saying I need just one month class thereafter I'll m...