Day 3 at work

It's week 2. Not day 3 exactly. Since week 1 was a bootcamp event  in Seattle, I will not count it. Everything is pretty smooth so far. I have got my first task assigned. I need to pinch myself to check what's wrong with me. I DO look forward to go to office! I don't get time to check my phone. I CHOSE to not to have facebook app on my phone. Wow! Is that me? I hope the positivity and passion don't fade with time.

Well, my home is not completely set up yet. I had this wish to have themed bathroom. Haha! Like matching soft rug, towel, candles and stuff. Working on it. I have not ordered my mattress yet. Surviving on air mattress. There is lots to be done. Weekend will be the time probably.

There are times I get excited about an idea and feel like how about a startup! Then next day, naah! Just want to relax and enjoy life. I am done with my share of stress. 

I never imagined I would be awake 60 hours straight. The graduate life! When it was quarter 1 at UCSD, I struggled real bad. I was one of the top performers from BOTTOM! I was shocked! It is impossible. I can't screw up this bad. For me to accept that its okay to be among worst performers in class took a while to digest. I withdrew from a course. I cried on video call in front of my parents. I can't. I just can't do it. I want to come back home. I had such an amazing life in bangalore where every weekend was fun. Here, I am killing myself for no reason. I was at the verge of depression. It was then I decided to take a step back, breathe and start over. I never looked back since then. I was just too obstinate to give up. I fell, pulled myself up together and moved on. Fell again. But, I refused to give up. For many of my peers masters was a cake walk. For me it was a big deal. A huge deal. I remember when I first moved in to on-campus housing I got one of the most beautiful apartment which overlooked an amazing view from the balcony as well as my room. If I were my happy self I would have thought of that place as the one where I always wanted to be. Wake up to such a beautiful view outside my window, a view that I used to paint in my childhood. Would you believe me if I say, even that view seemed gloomy to me? I hated every bit of my life, my surroundings, my college. I wondered if I will ever graduate!? I wondered will I be happy that day because at that moment I hated my college?

June 17 was my graduation. All my friends attended my graduation day. I was happy and so proud. I am in love with my college.Nivedita, Dave, Shrestha, Lorraine, Jin, Richa are the best things that happened to me at UCSD. I am fond of them.  

Anyway. It's over. I am happy. Life is good. Last few months were the worst of life, it was the best too! So cheers! 

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