« Home | Do u burn the midnight oil? » | Woh lamhey...Woh yadein... » | Jassi jaisi koi nahi » | Why blog? » 

Tuesday, October 25, 2005 

My first crush.....

dekha tumko jab se
bas dekha tumko yaara
tumse koi acha hai naa
tumse koi pyaara

the latest one..! not actually latest coz unfortunately it's the only one i had :(

BOLD?? ..beliv me! it's a CRUSH !!

i thought n pondered n reflected n thought...shud i disclose??? n came to this conclusion....
"dil hai ki maanta nahi"

Before i continue ....i'd like to dedicate a ditty for him....
"mai shayar toh nahi...magar aye ---.....jab se dekha..maine tumko..shayari..... aa gayi"

true ..it's very true..
i haven't divulged it yet..but one thing is for sure...mujhe shayari zaroor aa gayi.

Days n nights ..hours n minutes ..i thought of nothing but him :)
It was the strange spell that his facet cast on me that made me his oblivious follower..i knew he had many such lovers around..but i had lost myself..i dunno
...he was there ..everywhere..in my thoughts...in my dreams...in my books(shayari)...on my lips...and in my heart. i could not help thinking about him. i thought my studies are goin to be affected but my (unreasonable) love was so strong ...i couldn't stand that my love has weakened me..so academic results too improved :) mere life mein bahar aa gayi.

i was BOLD by his aggressive personality(of course never on me)...his attitude..dedication..courage...n wht not.He wasn't always available...hamari mulaqat kabhi kabhi hoti thi....ask me..mujh se poocho maine kaise har pal bitaya uski yaad mein...bas woh aur kuch nahi... My sis had given up..she made fussy attempts to keep me from him...my mom had spent hours explaining me...my dad enraged ...scolded angrily, tried to explain lovingly but i could not..."dil hai ki maanta nahi"mai use bhool nahi sakti thi.

i dunno how..but it happened !!! he was stalked by many and he enjoyed it...n i was one among them.i could not resist...could not control myself...my biggest weakness was once again victorious- m ruled by my heart!:(


examination times were also same...khayalo mein woh bas woh....was that my infatuation? i never knew..n i did not care..coz i just loved n enjoyed his company....i was just crazy..!!
"uske siwa koi baat nahi... uske siwa kuch yaad nahi..."

well tell u.. he was mast..and y not? after all I was fida..toh kuch to khaas hoga hi :P


i guess enuf of hide n seek!! might be intuitive..??

chalo..bata hi diya jaaye...


he is..


is..


is...


is...


actually i was BOWLED by cricket :))))


i was crazy about it...very impatient during matches...well i spent nights n dayz...hours n mins etc thinking wht shud be SG's nxt plan. well:))...cricket fever was there durin my examination too...mom ,dad, sis were tired of explaining n did their best to keep myself away frm TV durin matches..i cud not afford to miss a single ball !!

as far as shayari is concerned..i had written many poems..on cricket and cricketers..etc etc..:P :P

a small incident..which reflects my stupidity...:((
i was at railway station in a nasty mood coz i never wanted to go anywhere since we had indo pak match that day.....:((
n i had missed almost the whole....:((((( i kept myself updating with the score though
then fortunately i saw the last over of the match at station itself..a close match..dragged to the last ball
..nail biting one..i was still. n my eyes glued to TV..n that of my folks to me... irritatingly!!
last ball..pak needed a boundary n india a wicket (to win)

...thn..the ball was hit n kaif took a spectacular catch...i springed up in exhilaration...with both my hands raised...!!!! :-Omy folks...other waiting passengers..all eyes turned around n focus was on me.. ..:P well..wht can i say...i was so very embarrased at my juvenile act..my father sitting with a raised eyebrow..anyway. who cares ? hum jeet gaye ;)

anjaane mein..i gave my folks a gud opportunity to poke fun at me even till 2day :((...that momentary scene created by myself makes me grin at myself :P :P

anyway..that was my crush..interesting naa?

now y "was"..coz few months back i had crushed this crush!! so it is my first crush ;)
anyway..i have realised ...i haven't seen match since many months...i m sure ICT needs me :P..well jab tak i was watchin evrythin was smooth ...n now!!

...m here team india...i m back to charge u up ;)

well..m sure ind is gonna come back to track very soon...

C'mmon INDIA !!


I LOVE INDIA...N..CRICKET !

i wanna get back my tag...Priya ka zaheer...Smriti's Irfan....n mine????
pooray gyarah ;)


m comin...to cheer u...mai aa rahi hoon..................



btw..wht did u think was my crush :P :P :P

I`ve known about ur passion for the men in blue since the time I`ve known u ..ictfan_neha ..err rite ;)

u mixed that well though! anybody wud go on reading hoping u`d make that confession in the next line or the next one...

wo din kab aayega wen u`ll actually write abt "him" :P

wow..did u see the match?? INDIA crashed back..with a tremendous victory...!!i can't beliv..m back n so is india!! :-O

was that my crush which helped india 2 crush SL? :P

hmm..so i succeeded in drawing readers' attention!!

woh din?..woh din? smriti se poocho :P :P :P

hey nehu.........u rock.......simply rock!!!!!!!!!
mujhe wahi lag raha tha ki......4 write ups n none abt ict......aur pls irfan purana hua......use bhool jaa......aur tere liye......andrew symond theek hai :D

from the starting i alwayz thought of a boy .. but we " THE NERDS " [rather I ] of 21 st century cudnt think of anything better. Well people around me r crazy abt cricket. My two bros .. my roommate .. i mean even girls in my college .... and i m not even bothred abt the score .. and just for a formality i might ask .. who WON .. though i knw tht it wud hardly be INDIA [ i knw it won last night comprehensively ] ..

Hey if i m not crazy abt cricktet .. am i not entitled to visit this blog :(

hi. anuj here.

hey neha u have many new ppl visitin ur blog!!!!!!
but now i think i ll have 2 change my views abt u on my blog...where i had written she's crazy abt cricket but hasn't yet written anythin abt it!!!

@ smriti
rock!! i rocked? whew ..n so did india!! m jus flat over their aggression!..simply..no words actually striking my mind to deck thm with!:)

u knew i had crushed my crush 4 sometime :( so no write ups abt ..

well..it's not new. ur's keep changin... andrew symond bura nahi hai yaar..don go over looks..i read n article long time back...he loved india n indian culture n so he deseves 2 get my respect;)

4 me..no symonds..only "the eleven". mind u:D

ya india rocked.....n irfan 2....i think woh purana nahi hua....me 2 had crushed my crush...but i think i shd not do so!!!

@ anuj
hmm..my friends thought same n were shocked(coz m one of the most disciplined among thm :D)

so u aren't a cricket buff!!
well..apni apni choice hai! btw wht r u exactly pointing out by "though i knw it wud hardly be india"!! :O
yaar, ind itna bura to nahi hai :(

anyway..u r welcome 2 my blog..of course u need not be crazy cric fan to visit my blog!only that u don criticize thm(ict)..even if u do..i'll be there 2 defend thm ;)

congrats..we won :)

btw..can u introduce urself? :)

@ smriti
:)) :)) :))

yaar..ek par tike raho..sab slip karte rehte hain....aisa naa ho ki haath malte reh jao ;)

@someone who "lives for cricket".."is of cricket".n."is inspired by only n only cricket"
tumharaa ye post padh ke ladke cricket dekhna chhor denge…cricketers se nafrat(jealous) karne lagenge if they come to know that cricket has taken thr place in the hearts of young ladies…
title padh ke to meri saasen ruk gayin.."Neha jo kal tak mujhse MB kaa matlab puchh rahi thi(wo bhi mere papa ke presence mein!!!)..usne ak din mein itni progress kar li"…but thnk God..its just that ur old love(which was sleeping but not subdued) is back again..
waise cricket is ur passion perhaps ur love.. atleast more than crush
par true cricket fever is back now once again u all'll b hiring me to run(or accompany u all) here n thr within the campus for scores
this time much more is in store to accompany cricket..hai naa?
waise it’s the third year since I abandoned cricket(once for ever ofcourse)..now I m not evn bothered abt the score
anyways…"Long live Neha n her crush(or love)"

heey..just now it striked me ..how abt celebrating our Bonanza with something related to cricket..its something new which r seniors have nvr done(today they were proposing all those off-repeated ideas.."whole class in full sweaters(when whole skul is in half ones)".."criss-cross shoes(one black-one white)".."each girl with 3 watches on her wrist"..n "whole class in Priety's specks(KHNH)"..but v should've something original..first handed..so think abt it..n come with ur ideas 2morrow.

Neha ..can u pls introduce ur new visitor(s) to me.

tumahre crush ko padhkar to mujhe apni kahani yaad aa gayi.....just joking.ye public me tum log kaisi baatein karte ho....kuch samjh me nahi aata.upar se jata hai.Mujhe bhi samjhao.waise tumhare crush se mujhe sab pata chal gaya.namakool cricket ke bahane se
apna crush describe karti ho....sharam nahi aayi:)ab jao mujhe sab pata chal gaya.
onam

HI NEHA, I READ UR ARTICLE.
I CAN UNDERSTAND UR EMOTIONS, FEELINGS
BUT STILL I WILL LIKE 2 ADVISE U TO LEAVE THAT INFATUATION.
ARE BHAI"" ZYADA MATCHES INDIA KE FIXED HOTE HAIN. SO PLZ DONT GET SERIOUS TOO MUCH"

onam to sach hi befkoof hai agar use kuch samajh nahi aaya to!!

hey listen panna inform every1 that our bonanza week starts 24th Nov n ends up on 30th.....get new xcitin plans after diwali holls!!!

aur neha main tujhe itni befkoof...lagti hoon ki haath malte reh jaaon....this hath....is not my cup of tea

@ panna
yeh..for someone wala thoda zyada ho gaya...
anyway..it's a passion n i enjoy it..
u mean i cannot progress!:o :o
:p :p :p
anyway..mera bhi no. aayega ;)
a step ahead of crush seedha :p:p
btw thanks 4 ur aashirwad

@panna
bonanza week...filhaal cric is ahead..will think abt it later :)

First lemme myself get my new visitors intro..then i'll introduce them to u ;)

@ onam
apni kahani..oooooo onam never knew..hey chupi rustam!! jokin?? naa..kuch toh hai ;)
well..ur tag "fused tubelight" is suitable..n smriti bilkul sahi hai :p:p:p

well sharm kis baat ki..that m passionate abt cric!!

@ harkirat
:o :o :o
zyada matches fixed hote hain!!
:x :x :x

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEHA
tune mujhe skul me kuch bolne nahi diya isliye ab meri baat sun....2day i came skul 2 wish u....tujhe kya lag raha hai main jhooth bol rahi hoon.....my hands n my waist is swelled up due to the tug of war...i wasnt goin come 2 skul....but jab mujhe yaad aaya ki tera birthday hai aaj....n tu subah tuition ke liye nikal gayi hogi......i came 2 skul in that condition also....ab bol tujhe kya bolna hai....aur ab jo bhi burayi....aan karni hai meri kar.....i m not so kanjus that i can't call u up!!!!

happy birthday to u.......
happy birthday to u
happy birthday dear neha
happy birthday to u

many boy friends to u
many boy friends to u
many boy friends dear neha
many boyfriendsssssss tooooooo uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

many many returns for the day neha.....i m sorry im pretty late but i hope u 'll understand.... ghatna grast halat mein tumhe likhne ka kast kar rahein hai so abhi etne mein hi satisfied raho....
and temporarily jhakas likhne par badhai pa kar bhi......... bilkul mere maan ki baat cheen li.....

hi neha yeh shayad mera pehla comment hai.pehla article was 2ooo gud ful of humour! but the secnd one hmmmmm made me mad til i actually reachd ur crush. vaise 2mse yehi umeed ki jaa sakti hai.aua ek aur bat pls pls dnt grow up hope tum 10th ke bad aisi hi raho aur agar mera naseeb accha hai to 5 saal bad bhi mujhe aisi hi milo u ver a gr8 frnd,wnt b able 2 forget u after all scorpions dnt frget people easily riteeeeeeee!

@ smriti
oh..sorry yaar..i never let u speak!!
thank u very much :)
well i screamed so much.."Rubys..Rubys.." ah we won 1st n lost tha nxt two..n thn the tie breaker :(
no probs buddy..v were thought 2 be underdogs..n on final day..tough eliminated frm tug of war..we secured the 2nd position..that's team spirit!! congrats to ur efforts..well done(pulled):)
well..u ppl shud thnk me too...ah couldn't spk whn back home. gala ka haal bura ho gaya tha:((..fine now..hope u r too :)
thnx again 4 comin 2 skul despite..par it wasn't needed yaar..u needed rest!!

@priya
aapka bhi yehi haal hai..
thnk u priya...for whishin me..n happy b'day(bltd now)..
yaar..wht i said above(2 smriti)same implies to u too...
aapne kasht uthaya..aapka dhanyawad ;)

@ priya

boyfriends??
:))
same to u ;)

@ shagun
hey shagun..gr8 to see u here :)
shayad nahi..pehla hi hai!
hmmm..so u've got diff opinion..chalo let's where am i taken 5 years hence..n wht r the changes..
4 the moment..m completely unaware of my future..yaar the magic mirror is misty :P :P
yep..scorpions! they r the best :)
welcome again :)

boyfriends.............neha they r exclusively meant for u.........and REX for sillu........kyu kisi bechare bali ke bakre ka life barbad karne ke baare mein sooch rahi ho .............kya ab hum bardast ke bahr ho gaye hain ......can't tolerate me ne more.......c'mmon.....scorpions are the most determined of the lots...........aren't they ???????prove ur self to be a tru scorpio .....aur yeh acchanak se twist kahan se aa gaya .....why r u being so formal?????"aapne etna kaast uthaya......."what is thi s stuff yaar...........smriti's statement.....dosti bhool gayee kya??????????????????????????//

yeh baar baar dosti bhoolne ki kyon baat karti ho..!!! :o :o
White mails???:p :P

apne comment ko dubara ja kar padho phir kehna...samajhti nahi ho smriti se taang khichai ka lessons le rahe hain ... achanak se toh change nahi aaye ga naa....aur i'll def try to send coloured mails to u from now onwards if it may so please u/....
but yaar leave these things aside.......dhoni kya khela tha ....superb...thoda sa shine najar aa raha hai indian cricket but hey i'll not say that b coz of the reason u r well aware of.......but yaar that was sumthing and i m sure even u r havin a similar opinion......m i rite????/

neha i m really sorry actually i read this article long long ago but 4got 2 post a comment...i hope u don mind...yaar tumne toh mujhe apne wud bes ka yaad dila diya....kaash tumne jo shuru shuru mein likha woh mere liye sach ho jaaye....i wish my dream comes out 2 b true....wow!!!!
mera mann ati prasanna hua ki meri mitra pragati ke path par agrasar hone lagi hai ...nice no

n i dint mean bout cricket...yaks its not my cup of tea.....i don even understand wat is LBW except 4 its full form

great................i feel like bashing ur nose. ise khate he khoda phad nikli chuhiya.
waise would u like to share ur first crush.

@ priya
cent percent..i agree wid u:)

@sil(k)y
oye hoye...mera aashirwad tumhare saath hai :p
yes u r late..eh..late comers!! i don't like

@ anonymous
well..agree i like suspenses n surprises but..sorry i cudn't get u!..i guess it's some miss ..no mr.
is it apurwa?..anyway crush ho toh..i'll make sure i tell u miss....
:P :P :P

i stopped reading your blog the minute you disclosed [i]his[/i] identity. you shouldnt have done that.

i had kind of expected tat though.. well nice posts here anyways.
BEst of luck!

This is the second time I went through your blogs..1st was that "Just Chill Chill..and second one "My First Crush".You may think...why did I go through the last I mean 1st very 1st blog of yours after reading the current.Well your creativity made me to go through all your blogs.Really interesting and able to hold the reader till the last word.I really appreciate your creativity.....you succeed in draging attention of mine...you made me go on reading.Keep it up.I will always wait for the new one....

Thank you Neha

Howdy,

I am regular visitor of this website[url=http://www.weightrapidloss.com/lose-10-pounds-in-2-weeks-quick-weight-loss-tips].[/url]nehasinha.blogspot.com really contains lot of useful information. Do you pay attention towards your health?. Let me show you one truth. Research shows that almost 50% of all United States adults are either chubby or weighty[url=http://www.weightrapidloss.com/lose-10-pounds-in-2-weeks-quick-weight-loss-tips].[/url] Therefore if you're one of these people, you're not alone. In fact, most of us need to lose a few pounds once in a while to get sexy and perfect six pack abs. Now the question is how you are planning to have quick weight loss? [url=http://www.weightrapidloss.com/lose-10-pounds-in-2-weeks-quick-weight-loss-tips]Quick weight loss[/url] is really not as tough as you think. You need to improve some of you daily habbits to achive weight loss in short span of time.

About me: I am writer of [url=http://www.weightrapidloss.com/lose-10-pounds-in-2-weeks-quick-weight-loss-tips]Quick weight loss tips[/url]. I am also health expert who can help you lose weight quickly. If you do not want to go under difficult training program than you may also try [url=http://www.weightrapidloss.com/acai-berry-for-quick-weight-loss]Acai Berry[/url] or [url=http://www.weightrapidloss.com/colon-cleanse-for-weight-loss]Colon Cleansing[/url] for effective weight loss.

Post a Comment

Links to this post

Create a Link